1993 was amazing.

A toast!

"To the two women who I would drive and hour and half to have dinner with in Warren, Ohio"

clink!

I Yam What I Yam.


Most of 'Generation MySpace' never had to hear that awful song, "I am what I am," being bellowed out by a Gay Men's Chorus.

I did. Every year at Gay Pride. I hate it. I pretty much hate all the "Gay Anthems."

Wait...no. I do like

• "I spent my last $10 on Birth Control and Beer" by 2 Nice Girls.


• "Fast and Frightening" by L7


• "Rebel Girl" by Bikini Kill


• "Rebel Rebel" by David Bowie


• "I don't Believe You" by Magnetic Fields

I know there are tons more that I am not thinking of. Can you think of any?

I am having a hard time keeping focus.

Smile, cringe, smile.

That is what I do whenever I see fashion from the early 90s.

I love it, I am embarrassed by it, I miss it.



The glasses, the hats, the hair. Sigh.

That's the Judybats by the way.

Damn dill weed.


I just spent my evening making chicken soup from scratch.

I put in carrots, potatoes, green beans, noodles and of course some chicken.

It smelled soooo good.

As it was just about finished cooking I found a little container of dried dill in my pantry. I started sprinkling it into the soup. It wasn't coming out so I pounded the bottom a bit and then clumps of it came out. It looked kind of weird but I thought nothing of it. I stirred it in.

After about 10 minutes I noticed what looked like little dark reddish seeds floating in my beautiful homemade soup.

I took one out and it looked like a bug. I spooned a few more out and looked at them under a magnifying glass.

Yes. They were bugs.

A gigantic pot of homemade chicken noodle soup totally ruined.

Daaaaaaaaaaaag.

stonecoldbikini omlet

My friend Ed of Chasing Infinity and I will be the official DJs for the Sunday May 4th, Rock and Roll brunch at the Beachland Tavern.

You should come. The food is great and the staff is just lovely.

Here we do it different.


One hand in pocket, one hand wrapped around can of beer

Pretty dresses

I stumbled upon this video when I was looking for more info on Sufjan Steven's song "The dress looks nice on you".



It's really kind of beautiful isn't it? The song and the video.

Not So Leafy
Originally uploaded by bitterbutter

Finally I am seeing some buds on the trees here in the land of Cleve.

I am happy that it's starting...but get so angry when I see empty headed Barbie and Ken news dolls on TV shrieking about how thrilled they are that the temps are "going to be 10 degrees higher then they should be this time of year!"

Ugh!

Sooooooooooo Happy!!

Most of you guys already know this...but for those who don't, I do a radio show here in Cleveland.

It's only once a week on Thursday mornings from 8-10am. It's on a college/community radio station based at Case Western Reserve University.

WRUW FM 91.1

I have been doing this two-hour radio show for almost 8 years now. It's one of my favorite things in the world to do. I just love it. My show is called Stonecoldbikini. I got the name from a song lyric. The song is V.G.I. by Julie Ruin. "Im not a genius I'm more like a genie, granting girls wishes from my stonecoldbikini."

Julie Ruin is a project that Kathleen Hanna did after she left (or they just broke up) Bikini Kill. I think Kathleen Hanna is an amazing woman. An amazing artist. A cool chick who is NEVER afraid to use the "F" word. I just love that about her.

The reason I am sooooo damn happy is because this week is the week that we at WRUW do a telethon. A once a year thing. It's the week we ask for donations for our radio station.

Times are tight financially for everyone right now and I figured I would not raise as much as I did last year or even the year before. I was aiming for about $1500.

I was able to raise $3770!!
(well....$3769. I will throw in a dollar)

It's just amazing. I am thrilled that there are sooooo many people out there who get how important local, community, non-commercial, non-corporate radio is!!

I am also happy to find out that there are a lot of people out there who love the same kind of music that I play during my show each week. If you want to hear the telethon show, you can download it here. The archives last for a week, so you have til this coming Thursday morning at 8am to get a copy of it.

I am just sooooo damn happy!!!!!

Cut yr hair




The fabulous Kim Deal took Stephen Malkmus to task in a recent magazine interview:

Did the success of that song [Cannonball] cause any jealousy among your indie-rock peers?

You know, [Pavement’s Stephen] Malkmus is being a bit of a bitch in interviews recently. One thing he said last summer referred to me as “trashy mouth.” And he just did this article in Spin where he alluded to me unpleasantly, saying [something like], “You know, I always thought that Pavement could have had one of those big hits in the early ’90s with ‘Cut Your Hair,’ but I guess people preferred ‘Cannonball.’”

Are you a fan of his music?

Yeah, I liked Pavement. But if he keeps fucking smacking his mouth off about me, I’m going to end up not being able to listen to any of their fucking records again. Anyway, I thought, God, man, “Cut Your Hair” isn’t as good of a song as “Cannonball,” so fuck you. How’s that? Your song was just a’ight, dawg.

What to do when you can't sleep


You go online and decide more then anything
you want this phone.








Or you make a muxtape. Yeah...I said muxtape.

Mountain Battles


You are invited to a listening party
for the new Breeder's album, Mountain Battles.


Mountain Battles Record Release Party from The Breeders on Vimeo.


Please, have some chips.

Hooray for Hollywood!

Two of my Favorite Things!

The Beachland Ballroom and brunch!

Did you guys know they do a Sunday brunch every week. Neither did I.

It's too well hidden on their website. C'mon guys...do a bit of marketing!

The brunch goes from 11am-3pm The chef is Kimberly Homan.

Here is what is on the menu:

(all items are served a la carte):

Eggs Beachland:
Poached egg & peppercorn on a grilled baguette, topped with smoked gouda sauce

Egg & Cheese Strata: Fluffy baked egg, cheese, & bread cassarole

PB&J: Crunchy peanut butter & today’s jelly dipped in whole-wheat batter and deep-fried*

Breakfast Quesadilla: Chorizo, beans, & cheese in a corn tortilla (substitute vegetables for chorizo to make vegetarian)*

Oatmeal Pancakes with maple butter*

Breakfast Polenta: Creamy, buttery corn goodness with roasted garlic, cheddar, and bacon

Stuffed French Toast whipped cream cheese & fruit*

Fruit Cobbler: Seasonal fruit baked with granola and topped with honeyed yogurt*

Also: Bacon, Sausage, Roasted Potatoes, Corn Bread, Grilled Baguette, or Seasonal Veggie

Specialty and NA Cocktails available.

* All items marked with an asterik are vegetarian options.

I am planning to go on Sunday April 6th. Let's see how many people we can get to fill the damn place! C'mon...Stuffed French Toast for God's sake!!

Wow.



I am REALLY liking the new Portishead album called "Third".

Their first release in about 9 years. The above video is for the song "Machine Gun".

My fave song on the album so far is "The Rip". Give it a listen.

Was it something I said?

Everybody is leaving!

This from today's Plain Dealer:

Between 2000 and 2007, Ohio's largest county lost more people - both in numbers and as a percentage of its population - than any of America's 100 largest counties. During that span, Northeast Ohio lost nearly 50,000 people, according to a Plain Dealer analysis of the census data.

This makes me so sad. What will it take to get people to stay in Cleveland?

I don't think it's a Medical Mart.

I have lost about half a dozen friends to bigger cities. More progressive cities.

Why can't we be a quirky midwest town like Minneapolis?

Cleveland is like the guy who keeps losing his girlfriend to other women or artistic, fey straight guys. He doesn't know why.

He has a nice house in Brook Park. He takes her to all the Brown's games. On weekends he treat's her to dinner at Applebees or Outback. What the eff?! What more does she want?!

I don't think I've ever been more in love.

Isn't this Vespa GTS just gorgeous. Sunny yellow and 250cc!

Sigh.

I have as much chance getting this scooter
as I have getting Kate Winslet.

I probably have a better chance affording Kate.

Well I did it.

I voted for Hillary Clinton to be the Democratic candidate for president.

I really believe that Hillary Clinton wants to do good things for this country. I feel that she loves this country. That is why she wants to be president.

She knows what the hell she is doing.

I am hoping that people realize that and get out and vote today.

How much do I love Tina Fey?

Let me count the ways.....


One:

Cooler Cleveland

Ya know, we all complain about Cleveland, but this is one more example of how wonderful this crazy town is.


A vacant lot will become a winter wonderland on Leap Night February 29, 2008 from 6-11 p.m. The free event open to the public will be held at 1100 Old River Road (between Main Avenue and Front Street).

Leap Night will feature a snow and ice installation, a winter forest complete with costume bears, music, bonfires, performances by SAFMOD, Cleveland’s multi-media performance ensemble, an ice skating rink, a snowboard ramp and rail jam competition, an outdoor Rock BandTM video game competition, a snowsuit fashion show, and food and drink vendors. The site offers ample free parking and convenient access via the RTA Waterfront Line, East Bank Station.

Leap Night is part of Pop Up City, a temporary use initiative that is supported by the Cleveland Foundation’s Civic Innovation Lab and operated through Kent State University’s Cleveland Urban Design Collaborative.

Sunspot
Originally uploaded by bitterbutter

Sometimes the sun comes out after weeks of cold wet gray and it just makes ya so happy...so filled with warmth.

Sometimes you hear the perfect song to go with that feeling, that sunny day, and you drive for miles with your sunglasses on playing that song over and over and over and

nothing

could ever make you feel

happier.

William Fredrick Hahn

June 28, 1938 - February 1, 2008

My father died on Friday night.


He had been in and out of hospitals and nursing homes for
the last six months. He hated it. Just hated it.


On Friday afternoon I got a call from the most recent nursing home telling me that they had to call 911 because he was unresponsive and not breathing well.
I left work and went to the hospital. They told me I couldn't see him because they were doing tests. I went over to my brother's house where my mom and dad live to see how my mom was doing.



We got another call from the hospital. The doctor said my father was in really bad shape. That we should probably come over and see him right away. I called my sister and told her what was going on. She said she was going to come down to the hospital.


My brother, my mom and I went over. I got there first. He had a BiPap machine over his nose and mouth. It was forcing oxygen into his lungs. He was just lying there out of it. Not really awake. His eyes were open but he was unresponsive.


The nurse came in and said he was doing much better then when he first arrived. That gave us a second of hope, but then the doctor came in and said he was in awful shape. She said he had infections throughout his body. Fluid in his lungs. His blood pressure was very low. His body was giving up.


We stayed there in the ER for a while. My mom was not doing well just sitting there watching him. We were told another doctor was going to see him and give their advice on what we should do next.


We decided to go home and wait. My mother kissed my dad on his bare shoulder, told him she loved him and we left.



At this time we really thought there was a chance he could pull out of this. Mike, mom and I went and to get some lunch and went home. We called Kelly to update her on what was going on.


About an hour later Kelly got to the house. She had just went to see my father. Her eyes were all red from crying. For the next hour we sat in my mom's living room, waiting.


The hospital called.


They asked us to make some hard decisions. My father had a very strict DNR. He did not want to be put on any machines at all. He has told us that all of his life. Even in the last few weeks he told us to make sure we did not prop him up with ventilators. The hospital said the whole family could come be with him when they took him off everything and made him comfortable.


My mother couldn't do it. She started sobbing while Mike held her.
It was decided that Mike and I would go over and be with him.


When we got to the hospital, Dad was still in the ICU. We were in there when they took him off all the machines. He never came to during any of this. It was as if he was sleeping but having bad dreams. His arms and feet were twitching, moving, but he was unresponsive. We sat in there with him for about an hour or two.
The nurse came in and said that they were going to take him to a hospice room on the 2nd floor. He said it would be more comfortable there. The nurse said it would take about 15-20 minutes.


Mike and I went down to the cafeteria. We sat and ate cold turkey sandwiches. Sitting there I was thinking about how happy I was to have my brother there. He's a very strong and kind man. The family could not have gotten through this without him. I have to remember to tell him that. Althought I am SURE he will have a smart-ass response. Even more reason to love him.


We went up to the hospice room where my dad was. It was much nicer. They raised the back of the bed so he was in more of a sitting postion. That was making it much easier for him. He really appeared to be much more at rest and peaceful. He wasn't twitching and he just looked more comfortable. He was in a deep sleep.
Mike and I sat there with him for about an hour. Mike held his hand and told him he loved him.


The time between which he took breaths became longer and longer.
Finally...quietly, he just stopped.


I looked at Mike and then he looked up at the ceiling and waved, "bye dad."

A memorial gathering of family and friends will be held from 6-8 p.m. on Tuesday, Feb. 5, 2008 at the WOOD-KORTRIGHT-BORKOSKI FUNERAL HOME, 703 E. MAIN ST., RAVENNA, OH

Charmed, I'm sure.

Are you charming?

Who is the most charming person you know.

What is "charming?"

How can one be MORE charming?

I H E A R T O H I O

Dance Party Friday!





I want to see Mark Nolan do this!!

This is a news channel in Cincinnati, Ohio

Corner of Route 14 and 44.

This is what it looks like at 5:52am in the Portage county seat.

The air felt like cold, dry, road-salt .

It smelled like coffee and gasoline.

I felt dizzy, tired, empty.

"You are so swell, just like DSL."

Last weekend when I was babysitting for my sister, her daughter (12) and her daughter's friend (13) wanted to go online. I called my sister to make sure they were allowed to do that.

She said yes, but only for an hour. She told me to "keep on eye on 'em" while they are online.

Do you know how hard that is?! I kept making excuses to walk through the dining room. I mostly saw them looking at some sort of animal game. No biggie.

Towards the end of their hour visit to internet land I noticed they were on MySpace.

I never had a problem with MySpace and always thought "What's the big deal?" But at that moment I wanted to find Tom and bitchslap him. All I could think of was that damn Dateline show with the parade of pervs.

I told the girls it was time to say goodbye to the interweb and get ready for dinner.

I heard the Hot Toddies sing HTML on WCSB the other morning. This song helps to explain why I don't ever want any of my nephews or nieces on the world wide web. Ever.

Great song tho!